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December has been rough for me. I had food poisoning. Then along came the most tenacious flu virus I have ever experienced. When we feel bad we tend to have thoughts about the fragility of life. We feel vulnerable. Each day we awake hoping we will feel better and be stronger. When we realize we seem to be no better, we feel a strong emotional letdown. I went through ten days of this -- up and down like a yoyo but really more down than up. We all know we are going to die and nothing makes us think about it like feeling rotten, trudging through our days like a work mule, putting one hoof in front of the other. It is OK to think about realities like death but isn’t it rather pointless to sit down in a mud puddle and start making mudpies just because it has rained? One illness is really a lot like one rainy day. It does not mean it is going to rain every day the rest of your life. Rather than get lost in thoughts of the fragility of life, I have found this to be a good time to affirm some of my basic truths. A personal basic truth is one that has stood the test of time and been a source of strength and comfort. Like the basic truth expressed so well in Waylon and Jessi’s song, “Storms Never Last.” Jessi even sang it at Waylon’s funeral, affirming that even his death was a storm that would not last. It was their personal testimony to the eternal nature of life. I believe life is unending. It changes form but it is still life. The leaves from the tress now seemingly dying in my yard are merely breaking down their nutrients to feed new forms of life in the spring. Applying this on the spiritual level, I am now a stronger form of life than when I was born. I have learned some things. I am a better person than when I was born. I have been hurt by a lot of people and I have learned how to forgive them. I have overcome great odds to accomplish some things. I am not fizzling out like a firecracker in a rainstorm. I am ascending. Since the day I was born in the middle of the depression I have been learning and growing and I shall learn and grow as long as I am in this life. When this life is over, I believe the Creator of this life will give me another form – maybe another name – and another opportunity to learn and grow. I don’t care what form it is. I would not have chosen a physical body but it has been a wonderful form to experience life so whatever form will be just fine with me. I think the Creator is smarter than me. I affirm that no matter what illnesses and problems come my way, I am going to be of service to God and my fellow creatures. I have come to see that I am here to love and to be loved. I intend to love and minister to those who come my way. I may not always know what they need but I know we all need acceptance and I will accept them as they are for I know those who accepted me as I was made it possible for me to believe I could be more. I affirm that I am going to live as long as I live. I am not fragile. My body may experience fragile times but I am more than my body. The same Life that was in that little baby in Bethlehem is in me and I shall share it as long as I am here on this interesting planet. Yes, I affirm life. And I affirm tomorrow we shall have a merry Christmas.
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